My opinion...there are some people out there who has selfishness hidden so deep within themselves that when they are unable to contain it any longer, it will erupt so disastrously because it affects the very people that matters the most...family...your spouse, your children, parents, cousins, nieces, nephews, etc.
And because the selfishness has eaten away at the heart, your soul becomes cold and unreceptive to the warmth that is attempting to reach out to you before you sink deeper into the abyss...
There is a reason why we are all here...granted, we all experience somewhat of the same life lessons since nothing is new under the sun but God has a plan for each and everyone of us IF we allow Him to show/guide us...
I don't understand...can you help me understand...do you not see the repercussions? Do you not try to think far ahead and say "if I choose this road...how will my kids grow up...what will I say to God when I stand before Him and He asks me "what have you done?"
Are we that far gone or naive to believe that He will pat us on the head when we explain why we were so selfish with our actions that we didn't care about the after effects upon your children...
I know...selfish people will say as they read this "but I am always giving, giving, giving...there is no time for ME, ME, ME.. well, i don't care because I am going to BE HAPPY with what I WANT..."
You poor, poor soul...you wretched, wicked person to NOT finish what YOU started for temporary pleasures that HAS NO VALUE
Do you know what has value?
Keeping your promise to God...
Opening your heart once again to become a new creature with a renewed spirit to become better than you ever were as a parent, child, friend....
But, you can't see that can you? Because you've convinced yourself that you'll be happy where you are....
But, you're wrong...
See, I've been there and done that...I went through the valleys...the deepest recesses of my heart to try to straddle the fence...to finally try and say "its all about me...why can't I do my own thing after all...I had to put up with immaturity and selfishness all these years directed at me..."
Hmmm..yeah...self-pity, unforgiveness, and bitterness overflowing within me until it almost consumed me...
But, there is just something about prayer... there is just something about Jesus that gives me that pause to realize...
"You're right...its not all about me... Clean my heart, God and make me new.. Help me to see what you want me to be.... Guide me and direct me all the days of my life..."
For You are my Rock and my Fortress; for Your name's sake you will lead and guide me. Psalm 31:3
Oooo, you go with this.
ReplyDeleteThe web of life is so intricately woven that only God himself knows where and how the dots connect. Aaaah, the beauty of life is not knowing but accepting that world does not revolve around one person and thank GOD for that-but should revolve around the one who made this life, yours and mines, to let him help us guide through it-and again, Thank God for that.
IDK if that made any sense, my contacts are suffocating mah pupils, im thirsty like a camel coming back on a 40 day trek and its 2AM. HA!